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DISTANT EQUALS RATE TIMES TIME

swaying around in a dream missing much letting all pass by quick changes calmed down absent-minded at ease fulfilled dull smiling need a pinch a small one just to shake up a bit to wake up to get back but not a big one big ones are huge big ones keep me in bed for too long lost connections cut contacts i had a chance just a picnic a night out a preview demo great ill get t2wo of those and fi5ve of these keep the change whats the use if the delivery is late toolate i used to know what to do with it but hmm well anyway hey im ok im fine i can do much better though but that was a long time ago however id just like to know a couple of things more got some unanswered questions but i can already guess it all a couple of things more to do then i can but theres always something i dont care now im calm tomorrows gonna be just like friday even better yeahYEAh two scars and thats it yep and inlove also the project some money maybe oh yeah the job oh no well ok so some money maybe zagreb and a doctor and if everything gets fine the wall also yeah right no way doesnt matter and those stupid daily superstitions holding me back or not sleep well have a nice dream ill stay up keeping vigil im not sure i want to hear it is it good or bad does it hurt its fine like this maybe i shouldnt listen to anyone at all besides its too late for the good one and the bad ones still can do harm im pretty unstable so i should better NOTcall back i wish it was true though yet i wouldnt know what to do with it holdmee animate me dont let me look away keep my full attention and its gonna be okay i promise.

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[THERE ARE T2WO COLOURS IN MY HEAD]

loves me loves me not loves me lovesmenot all at once while still emitting the alcohol hates me wants to change me well sorry im too old for this detailed and growing through the ceiling the magic beans a beanstalk fee fie foo fum how does the giant look like a cat on the wall staring and now you well what the hell do you want im tolerant enough i might explode i promise to explode soon if it doesnt change isolation could get me back fuckyou ive got my th3ree different blacks im gonna build my own one and youre not welcome anymore you didnt even manage to see the old one you cripple besides what is this a goat a cat a bear a squirrel so ugly i dont even wanna know pity there isnt enough space for more of those pretty ones so typical anyway and now its cold a massacre well at least its changed and thingsll settle for a while for long enough to make me repair it so that you can blow it away again like a spoiled child t2wo at the same time a reserve a fake plastic o1ne a bait a you wont even notice you never spot the difference anyway i wish i could show you the real o1ne youd love it f5ive for o1ne its not gonna work that way an eye for an eye or no eyes at all i dont need to prove myself its either good or dead you choose i dont care anymore i have more important things to think of im afraid but i cant imagine any other way so i guess its gonna be ok otherwise id wish it was a real time machine to take me back and keep me there or would i but its not so i guess im stuck here while youre still away thinking that im too hard to handle the other o1ne is very close but still so distant distrustful hurt angry sad fuckedup why dont you come back and tell me smt big or no please no big things okay something small and calming of course you wont you will when you find another reason for shouting out at me thats okay thats gonna help me explode faster sooner surer.

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EXTRATIME [ONTHEGROUND]

a year ago i had a neighbour always the ocher one with the indian fish and branches very embarrassed for no reason at all the dark one almost like the other one or just the same but different the other one the darker one much brighter clearer closer as a shot an injection should help to forget but didnt only got more of it all mixed up and blurred the one the another both or none the doctor the shopkeeper a year ago before the jump right after the fall or a couple of years long flight now more colorful doubled fulfilled almost completed all messed up pay attention not for too long oh look theres another one coming along leave it aside leave it behind youre gonna need both hands for this one for every one too hard to take it all at once didnt practice didnt learn on time missed it all looked away sitting beside with hands tied been away for too long what did i miss oh you saved me a place a seat thankyou the card castle the breeze the door slam the violator should split should double or multiply or just disappear disintegrate fall apart fly away no should turn away walk away or stay its all too good too bad its completely different one now the only one with no chances took it all or nothing two or three how many fingers do you see thirty a daylight a spotlight an old and bad make up sunglasses can hide it but theres a reflection a mirror a ricochet.