20070422

0031

[DIE DREAMING] BLAME THE MONSTER.


its two fingers of something nice two to three lines fifteen seventeen a paragraph a page or two a whole book its all about the frown and fingers about the voice and the eyes and opinions the walk the bad mask pants ideals ideas weaknesses disorder hair hands small things big things difference identity yes the sameness its about the same things actually its about the other side of it someone elses memories and experiences that id like to know by heart well yeah im going because its mine to go.


20070421

0030

MONSTROSITIES [MURDEREE]


ey ive got an idea its pretty simple look you just fuck it up somehow and die whatdyasay thatd be the coolest thing youve ever done the inner monologues dialogues storms and thunders thoughts of your long sticky fingers cant please everyone neither its the point gotta please yrself first once and for all i almost forgot that other side the nice one did someone really see me did anyone hear if thats what it takes then im saved but its just a coincidence the most convenient one the best ever ive tried once again and screwed it up it was the wrong trick there was no any recipe after all are you a cripple cant you make it on your own do you really need a helping hand every time you take a shit are you blind are you stupid are you really that stupid if it wasnt so ugly itd be sad you may think im sad for writing all this for such a long time and you do and i know i am but its not a cowardish thing id rather call it a patience if you only knew how idiotic you look like from here get yrself a life its a mother thing a parent thing thats why im gonna skip the whole deal ive got enough thankyou im not that suicidal but you why dont you just simply die?


20070420

0029

PICHVAJZ


get dirty and let it stay there remain messy dont really mind the bruises and scars and marks the phone numbers xs stars and spirals the paint and holes and stains and yeah well the dirt well not really a dirt you know but umm well youll understand when you see me it that them him whatever see ya.


20070419

0028

1FIRST CLASS


sit back and relax make sure youre comfortable put yr legs on the table take some candies coffee juice coke whiskey tea mineral water sandwiches cigarettes cigars a joint a massage a bubble bath and start from the beginning tell me what the fuck is your problem.


20070417

0027

THE BUZZ


the lizards are all out euphoria long walks kids balloons kites sports sunshades flickering moving around in different directions walking fast or slow sitting on benches eating an ice creams [cant make up your mind between the strawberries and vanilla taste] pizzas barbeques popcorns holding hands hugging kissing feeding birds and dogs sweating stinking reading the news papers believing it sunglasses hats caps short sleeves short skirts pushing shouting watching the brand new collection of ugly sneakers touching the shop window flirting walking around burning fats making space for the new ones im glad its a springtime again.


20070404

0026

THE EXTINCTION


now i understand why the good one had to go theres nothing interesting to see anyway no need to stay any longer its the curiosity that grows you old it grows you small in that huge bed silent in that empty house grows you weak toothless ugly crippled grows you forgotten boring stupid helpless grows you humiliated ill disgusting rotten dead yes grows you dead anyway.